Dont give me 'PORRIDGE' attitude anymore.

2010-11-07T02:29:00.002+08:00

sometime just feel hard to believe and to trust anymore. since there's something being hide and dont bother to tell me, i just choose to pretend as nth happen. and seriously, i having doubts already. i'm speechless and i dont know how to express it out.

anyway was thinking when was my date with her??? ): i think she had forgetten.

SNSD - MISTAKE

2AM - YOU WOULDNT ANSWER MY CALLS

2010-10-11T23:53:00.005+08:00

some ppl complain about their attachment, but i enjoy la. though is not with my bffssssssss, but still learning something la. been removing all the components in the laptop and desktop for those old models that they dont wan already and after removing, pack them and let our seniors or so to check and use them as spare parts. i feel tired most of the time cause i need to see the mini screws around. RAWR~ hope everyday i learning new things. ppl there, give me a good impression during the 1st day. well, just one day only, I HAVENT SEE THEIR TRUE SELF. maybe they will scold me? well, i dont know la. LOL.

i realise i grow up already! ):

2010-10-06T23:39:00.003+08:00

rawr, today went for ns checkup and i need to go back again. sad life sia. why i cant be normal. they say my pressure high and need to put some equipment the whole day tml. once again, squeeze bus and train in the morning lor which i dont like it. anyway, today everyone know where they attach to. some are sad by their place and company, like i say in fb, dont be sad ah. we always be together and we can spam on fb. hahahha. anyway, was emo today morning but now no longer already. i canot stay this way! (:

are u willing to be my thi-rak mah, MYSTERY GIRL? (:

2010-09-29T23:37:00.006+08:00

rawr. tml morning i'm leaving sg already. i feel touched. quite a few friends wish me. (: thanks leh. ppl like carol, mich, zc, hibri, joleen, wendy, daph, mw, val, jane, joyce, yana, qh, sufyan. i cant rmb still got who. i think mr ismail also. LOL. thanks, u all make me felt i'm not alone. anyway, i feel touched by the video mich post to me. make me wanna cry. and also, my little ♥ acc me to take pic. she damn cute la. last but not least, my cousins and family who are worried and concern for me. (: THANKS.

with my little ♥.

little ♥ with her mummy.

i ♥ all of you.

this is the video mich(jiejie) post on my wall. THANKS! though the meaning not right. (:

2010-09-28T12:24:00.004+08:00

whenever i was down or what, i never fail to youtube this song. prik thai - mot arom. seriously damn nice and sad. but no matter what, still must smiles! finally i own this song now. making it to my ringtone? LOL. anyway, another exciting outing coming with family. going some island taking ferry from changi and enjoy my day there? but i think 2 weeks later? better than nth. seriously, I ♥ my parents. (: i shall treasure the time with them! i wish i could hug them and apologise to them. )':

2010-09-26T22:50:00.005+08:00

my lovely parents brought me an iphone 4 yesterday! went out with them the whole day! never regret to join them. of course with little ♥. and yet today, i went swimming with my dad, 1st sis and husband, my 3rd sis and little ♥. she damn cute with her swimming costumes. went to deep pool myself and swim. become darker already! i like! been busy transferring stuff la. so tired. even mixed up with my sis one. but lucky we found solution! (: now, busy msging with my friends using 'textME' and 'whatApp'. seriously, this is so cool. but then i going to miss it la. i going to batam soon! excited! but i was alone and damn bored! ): why cant misunderstanding go away asap? seriously, i dont know what's wrong! ):

29 sept - sentosa with bri, zc and zc's friends.
30 sept to 2 oct - BATAM TRIP EMOING! ):
5 oct - outing with jane and val! MISS THEM LOTS!
6 oct - ns checkup again! HOPE I WILL BE FINE! ):

seriously, 2 of the 4 outing is happy. last one will be nervous and 2nd one, half happy half sad. ): RAWR. suddenly, i feel like sleeping. ):

my sisters and my iphone. all put little ♥ pic as lock screen wallpaper.

2010-09-21T11:57:00.004+08:00

last day of work today. totally tired but i had fun. tml going ns checkup in the morning. think i may have not enough of sleep hours again. 3 more days to batam trip briefing. 9 more days to batam trip. 20 more days to attachment. 38 more days to get iphone 4. i think after everything clear, i stay at home and rest. need sometime to rest my mind. i'm so tired. dont worry about me and go away~

2NE1 ROCKS!!! i like this song, 'go away'! they're so cool.

2010-09-16T01:38:00.003+08:00

suddenly my holis like become very packed even though i work for 5 days? or maybe less than that! alot of things suddenly keep flowing in my head. am i just paranoid again. hope not!

here is some plan i have for holis. RAWR. so little yet so many things to do.

17 sept - sch attachment 10am, team bonding for batam trip 2pm, yog party at RWS 6.30pm
18 sept to 22 sept - CASHIER LIFE with KA-KIS! (:
22 sept - NS checkup in the morning.
24 sept - batam briefing and injection! 10 am ):
30 sept to 2 oct - batam trip!

there are few empty slots. maybe mj session, cupcakes learning day! suddenly i wan to learn how to bake cupcakes so that i have some baking skills. MOTIVATION IN LIFE~
anyway, i'm waiting for 29 oct and i get a iphone. my dad dont wan me to get ipod touch. say i dumb for getting that! and he say the only phone that i can change is iphone (pay by him, just take. RANDOM OFFER FROM HIM). i think he wanna stop me from keep changing phone? 'DONT WORRY DAD, soon i will be NS! ):'

2010-09-14T13:41:00.004+08:00

finally exam over. HURRAY~ but nth seem to give me do. alot of planning coming from friends but i doubt i have the time for them. just called HR in the morning and wait for her to plan for my schedule. anyway, i going for a batam trip to do volunteer work. somemore i going alone with other class ppl. suddenly i feel i so crazy. even my lecturers couldnt believe it. but well, TIME FOR ME TO WALK OUT OF THE CIRCLE AND LOOK AT THE WORLD! (:

2010-09-05T01:59:00.003+08:00

super stress? one module i already like wan die le. the theory super tough la. i cant imagine my friends in poly. hais. i just hope the final exam not so tough la. give me shun shun li li do finish can le. seriously i dont understand why it keep happening? problem lie on me or ... just hope everything can be solved. well, i think im just paranoid.

2010-08-08T13:01:00.004+08:00

it's been so long since i update. so busy with my projects and have so many things to do. like projects, assignments and tests. life get so bored when everything tie together. worry for my results that's all. and we need to present for our projects and that's is damn freaking bored too. rawr~ i can make it through la.

when little ♥ growing up...

at playground.
showing off her owl tee.
running away with her 'smelly'.
HELLO!
showing her ironman tee.
mother & daughter look alike. LOL.
BOO~
*YAWNS* little ♥ getting tired.

2010-07-17T00:21:00.003+08:00

currently so bored and nothing seem to interest me. ): and it's been 2 weeks since sch start. everything was okay ah. just that look like we rushing through module and all. damn tiring and boring to me. hahaha. now, i getting more busy. rushing for pm2 project report and lucky my etd project finish editing with my group members. aiyer. just a short term for this term, everything seem rushing. but i still so relax. (Y)! hahaha. though everyday there's up and down, but everything seem fine to me. just cool down a sec and forget everything ah. dont wanna bother too much till like a serious argument. seriously no one like it ah. people like it unless they are freak. :X suddenly i had this feeling, 'i seem to be a dirt to them when i treat them as my precious friend.' do i really like a dirt to u guys? i hope not...cause i dont wan PORRIDGE and DIRT ATTITUDE! ):

2010-07-04T00:27:00.002+08:00

I REALLY ENJOYED MY LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAY AND TML IS THE LAST DAY!!! ): can i have more?

well, though is my last week of holidays and i am damn packed with it. busy going out with people ah! NICE~ and i (Y)! i shall summarize it ah, cause i waking up early later. wed night, i met up with ang-ang ah, it's been sooooooooo long since i see her and she treat me dinner at sizzler. 1st time to there and nice la. especially the ice cream and salad! hahaha. ang-ang know abt it why ah. and there's unglam thing happen too. HAHHAA.

thursday i met up with the girls ah. wendy, daph, fion and cheryl. though is a mini and short meet up but i still have fun with them ah. went all the way to jurong to celebrate cheryl's b'day. cause due her daddy's health, she's unable to go out for a long period. and so, we went to cck and play arcade and take neoprints. yes, u guys didnt read anything wrong nor i type wrong. IS NEOPRINTS! it's been ages la. ahahaha.

to cheryl : dont worry, ur daddy going to be fine. must be cheerful and tolerate ur parents attitude towards u. cause they are in bad mood so they might be harsh ah. SMILES YA. nothing will go wrongs. be positive. (:

friday was a damn busy and packed one. during the late afternoon, i went back sch for you briefing and now i know i can drink UNLIMITED COKE AT AIRPORT. but pls, HOPE THERE'S SPRITE RATHER THAN COKE!!! i dont fancy coke ah but i do ADORE SPRITE!!! PRAY HARD NOW! (: after the briefing, as usual light refreshment and off we went separate ways to our own outing. mai went to find her family at CH, val met her friends at orchard but camp at DG 1st. wendy went to find bf at RP and daph, due to last min crop up, she went back home. for me, i went to orchard to meet my ushering ka-kis!!! (: had a fun night with them in PARTY WORLD ah. though i didnt sing much, but i still high la. hahaha. and the in-charge of the ushering was there too. and HIS SINGING = IMBA TTM!!!! took pictures with them and some is candid huh. as usual, mine always damn candid! (Y)! hahaha. DAMN ENJOYABLE LA!!! (Y)!

as for saturday, at home NUAN ah. and play MAPLE! :X thanks to bri ah, keep asking me to acc him. play a new char and EVAN CLASS! nice la. the dragon damn cute lor! :P but then at least i acc my parents today! i think they felt kinda happy la cause got such wonderful son stay at home NUAN. hahaha. weet~ guess where i going for later family outing? i'm heading to M'SIA!!! to eat fruits and DURIAN!!! YEAH~ and also SEAFOODS~~~~ XD my sky la, i'm too enjoying already and my $$$ flowing down like WATER TAP! -.-" RAWR, off to sleep la. HERE I COME, DURIAN, FRUITS AND SEAFOODS!!! hahaha. (:

2010-06-30T12:59:00.006+08:00

i had officially end my work ah. 1st week of job is cashier life and some day need to help in the dora meet & greet session. make me had phobia and hate working so much that time. but till last week, they transfer me over to ushering life and of course, i hate it at 1st. but once i went briefing and did the 1st session of toy story meet & greet, everything turn up to be fine and enjoyable. had fun and jokes during work. come think to it now, i really miss the days working! well, going to wait for the next holidays already. ):

my ushering ka-kis. most of them are taka temp staff also! IMYGUYS!!! (:
i'm glad that i know more and more people in taka. my taka ka-kis is growing big and more and more friends around during work. i think i wont be changing job for part time. wait till i finish study and had settle down with a job den change. seriously, i cant imagine my working life there without them. we even create a group out and yesterday we had our 1st outing! (: watched toy story 3, bowling session, k-box session and arcade session. is a nice and well-planned outing! i enjoy it so much ah and this is the 1st time i had a inter-race k-box session. LOL!!!

been snapped. i find this nice!
while waiting for the others to come.
swop of photographer.
thanks for the fun and laughter during work. this is the PUIYE's CLUB! not all attend i think. YGRTTM!

me and my bao bei ah.
the one who always there to help me. thanks and we continue to count on our friendship! (:

founder and co-founder! i am strong okay!!!

2010-06-18T12:20:00.004+08:00

hais. seriously i dont know what's wrong being initiative. always be initiative but the others dont seem to be bother and appreciate. regardless of studying or working, is the same. i only wan a simple chat and stuff, seem to be hard. no matter what goes wrong, there's always a solution to it and life still go on. well, dont bother so much. off to work and BQRTTM!!! (:

2010-06-16T19:09:00.006+08:00

HELP ME OUT!!!

finally an off day for me. but i received msgs and calls that today is not my off day. but well, i already stay at home. hahha. i wonder where goes wrong that the schedule had changed. stayed at home to help up my mum to pray my ancestors and i played with my niece. she cheered me up by giving me several hugs! thanks my lil ♥! (:

Woody & Buzz. (:

watched 'toy story 2' as i was addicted by the fair i worked which is the toys fair. alot of toy story items and some are cute la. especially the ALIENS! hahaha. i got freebie there. which is the spongebob key chains. i saw this coin pouch with candy inside was spongebob metal box was so cute. i wanted to buy and keep coin but i feel damn weird. hahaha. i feel so kiddo! hahaha.

this is the freebie i have. cute right? PAI-DA-XING & HAI MIAN BAO BAO! (:

anyway, while praying with my mum, i think of my granny. i wonder how is she and where is she? i really missed her alot. ): found this song few days back and i feel sad after listen to it. i agree with the lyrics, wondering if i call her now, will she able to hear it?

i really miss you, ah ma. )':

2010-06-11T16:39:00.007+08:00

skip sch today as most friends not going. so can say yesterday is OFFICIALLY the start of my holidays!!!! (: but i will be working on monday. well, time to relax and have fun with my ka-kis there. i miss you guys and not to forget, PB0904J/V, i miss you guys too. ): and yesterday was the last day mr amos taught us. will miss your lecturing, mr amos. ):

i did this card/board. hope mr amos like it ah.
the surprise card had filled up by J/V-rians. (:
PB0904J/V with mr amos. i miss you guys. ):
time flies fast today as i was chatting with carol on msn while watching 'sky of love' on youtube. went to find the vcd but i shouldnt find it. i think my sis took it back. it was a 2008 movie that i dont really finish watching it. damn touching.

i understand why some guys like to have a gf who have bangs. cause they can pat or rub their bangs. hahaha. LAME.
beside watching movie, val showed me some news and we are commenting on it. do u believe m'sia RE-USE straws at some restaurants? my sky, so disgusting right? and carol show me some bento sets. cute la. wonder who wanna do it for me? i'm waiting. i want the poison mushrooom or mushroom characters bento. (:

look tasty right? LOL.
the dino look so cute here.
i want one of those mushroom sets. (:
well, time to offline. going to prepare for ct's b'day dinner at river view hotel. never go such places before. nvm. got jas fetch me there. hahha. going to buy her number plate tml. HOPE I STRIKE some money. LOL!!!

2010-06-08T15:59:00.003+08:00

today phase test was a easy one. less than half an hour, i've complete it. but i hope i can get a good grade. i dont really wan history repeated again. anyway, just feel happy for myself. hais. ETD project had completed yesterday and the parts supposed to be done by someone else, had become my role. FORGET IT! now concentrating on my playground diagram. rawr! how i wish i can faster finish it and no matter what, during tml ETD lesson, i'm going to complete it. of course with my grp members. this week ending soon. how fast time flies! money in my wallet saying bye-bye to me. ):

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

2010-06-06T23:36:00.006+08:00

yesterday went out to lan with carol, terry, soki and soki's friend, yanfong. play 3 hrs and i had this feeling of vomiting again. but not so serious this time and i got improve already. carol KO after 2 hours. hahaha. terry so funny, all of them meet in khatib and told him they waiting for a girl called yanfeng and he really believed. till he saw soki's friend, yanfong and he start to LOL! not fair la. go out with a whole group of RED LINE-RIANS!!! i emo and go purple line cause no one green line also. enjoy crapping and dizzy. i ruin the fun ah. cause......i'm a noob in L4D2 ah. ):

mai did this. MACARONS. nice and sweet. but the crust too biscuit. hahaha.
been busying editing logo for my ETD and drawing the product. though is simple but at least covered what is not done la. now left the last part which is the 'PRICE' need to do something to it. den our ETD part 1 can so called 'DONE'. seriously i dont understand why people can just ignore and pretend as nth happen. everything comes with a price and there's NO FREE MEAL IN THIS WORLD!!! 2 projects handing in by this week can kill me la. all left with drawing. -.-" RAWR~~~

Ah Mei - Jian Ai.

2010-06-03T23:58:00.005+08:00

'There are some cracks which can never be mended by any amount of patching.'

i been a good boy who keep study recently. suddenly i felt so clever. hahaha. holidays coming. one more week to go. and mr amos not teaching us after holidays. cant hear his laughter anymore. hope the new lecturer teaching us wont pissed off. haha. 2 thing i wanna do, sleep and save money. random. -.-

2010-05-29T01:26:00.004+08:00

just not in the mood. hais. anyway, hibri share with me this video, damn nice. enjoy watching.

2010-05-26T00:20:00.004+08:00

i'm not good at words and i'm may be a offensive person. but i'm not really that kind of person that will harm and hurt people or even sabo. rawr. whatever it is, i dont bother anymore. no matter how u guys wanna treat me and say me, go ahead. i'm no longer the someone who always make myself tired cause of things around. seriously i'm tired of everything. dont bother is the best solution of it. (:

my korean craze is back. i'm down with a few songs. nice nice. u guys should listen. when i shall post it out and let u guys listen to it. not everyone like it, but i like it will do.

4 mintues - Hit your heart (Huh)

B2ST - Take care of my girlfriend (Say No)

B2ST - Easy

Super Junior - Bonamana

Big Bang - Tell me goodbye

Wonder Girls - 2 Different Tears

2010-05-15T01:50:00.006+08:00

seriously i got so speechless eh. the outcome is really STTC!! invest too much efforts liao. shall reduce some ah. the thing that i got in the end is seriously TURNOFF!!! but nvm, gain experiences bah. week by week gone la. so fast la. now i rotting at home during weekend. but then while rotting, doing housework is TIRING!!! RAWR~ i hope i can stop doing all that huh. during weekend, i shall get plenty of sleep before i need to wake up early daily to sch. i shall slowly LET GO OF THE KITE already.

photos below taken on 130510. camwhore with wendy and daph using cheryl's phone! rmb i took alot with daph, but end up left one. -.-" and this is the front camera lor.

the 3 of us eh. i like this though is blur la.
with wendy eh! see, she so zhilian! -.-

this is the only pic with daph for the day!!
Wah, i camwhore she also wan disturb! TSK!
finally, myself! (:

2010-05-11T23:26:00.002+08:00

I CHOOSE TO...

hang with who i wan, talk to who i wanna talk to and believe in myself. if i dont believe in myself, who does? i dont wanna let ppl to climb up on me and treating me good when they feel like. u know what? the feeling damn suck! from now on, i shall say whatever i like and what i feel like. and also be more selfish. being too nice is not a good thing at all! ): i believe in my friend too!

2010-05-06T21:08:00.004+08:00

things get better when we trash thing out. though sometime i dont know what am i doing or i too sensitive/paranoid about. but still one SORRY for u. seriously i got no idea what am i doing. well, everything's over. let bygones be bygones! (: this will bring us know each other better.

group photo of my taka ka-kis! though is not all of them! but still, i'm happy to have them.
my C5! (: super blessed to have them! its been years already!
finally the last weekend for my work! knew almost everyone there. they are the new batch of ppl that make me laugh! and i know some malay word too! cool eh. well, going to enjoy this last week of ladies fair and hoping to see them again! (:

2010-05-06T00:24:00.002+08:00

i wonder..

where is the 'ah ka liao' i used to know?
where is the person who i can talk to?
where is the person who i can joke with?
where is the person who give me advices?
where is the person who will hyper with me?

and now...thing wasnt the SAME! i been saying this for a few times already. well, i think prob lie on me bah. i'm just a lousy friend. ): when we say someone, we should think of ourselves 1st. if i myself are not good enough, i got no right to pin pointing at ppl. i just hope everything went well...now i fucking all those phrases like 'tml will be a better day' , 'let nature take its course' and etc..all those phrases are FUCKING lies that i used to comfort myself. if i dont do anything, will anything happen? no right! i know this post might affect ppl, but this is what i wanna say. ):

2010-05-01T12:16:00.003+08:00

i always hope that tml will be a better day but that was a lie to comfort myself.

sometime is not i really wan to be paranoid or emo. just that the thing happen around me alway make me feel that way. i didnt ask for anything much but just wan to be normal and all. this that too demanding? why i need to suffer all this type of treatment. i dont wanna say much. well, yesterday was a fun day with my taka ka-kis. i did LOL with them alot and i ate YAMI YOGURT!! nice la. i wanna eat that again. well, i think later i work, i'm craving for orange julius again. hahaha. seriously i miss those others ka-kis la. later after work, going to celebrate jas, one of my C5 members b'day. though i cant stay till late as i working morning tml, hope she understand eh. anyway, group photo of yesterday will be upload once i got it from xueli. lol.

with selena. hahaha. eh, joyce blur la. lol.

take 2 eh. better already. not blur.

try to copy selena as i saw her wallpaer of phone. lol.
suppose to do the same pose together but she step emo. -.-"

2010-04-24T11:57:00.003+08:00

什么是友情? 什么是义气?

我真的累了.

2010-04-22T23:41:00.004+08:00

MAN MOT AROM!

well, valerie found this blog site which give me see the alien that i wan. I'M SO GOING TO CATCH IT LA! RAWR~~~~ and beside that alien, found the one eye alien from monster inc which is so cute and the MANTOU DONALD DUCK!!! suddenly i felt so kiddo! -.-" HAHAH.

saw this at suntec and now valerie show me online! RAWR!
I LIKE THE DONALD LA! :X
see, the green eye cute right. hahaha.

2010-04-21T09:31:00.006+08:00

found this thai mv so cool la. got continuous part of it. one of the songs damn nice la. the second song nicer ah! hahaha. enjoy ah. (:

Prik Thai - Waen Gam (Karma)

Prik Thai - Mot Arom (Not In The Mood)
i like the ending. she show the guy FUCK when boarding the cab. hahah.

during the weekend, i got some pic with my friends eh! (: though things are getting worse but i believe the bond are not weak that could break so easily! i dont care those fucking comments about me and i wan to tell u guys this "FUCK CARE FOR WHO I AM. if u think i'm that way, so be it, cause no one are perfect! so are u!"

amias & me. (:
after so long den got pic with him. -.-"
me, mich & bri. (:
val, mel & me. i look so shy here. (:
soki & me. (:
me & jiejie. (:

2010-04-19T21:25:00.001+08:00

i ought to be strong. that the only thing i need to be!!!!

2010-04-08T17:19:00.006+08:00

haha. today i went sun tanning huh. and swim around 6 laps ah. damn tiring ah. but i like my skin colour now. reddish and brownish la. so cool la. this few days the sun is wonderful, so why waste it right? though past few days thought of going alone very sian. but today i just heck everything and go alone. slacking at the side and forget all the worries. hahaha. so fun ah. next time i shall go again. hahaha.

this show coming back the 4th episode. NICE NICE!

my little ♥ kill my boredom. can see my skin is tanned? hahah.
my little ♥. more pics at FB.

2010-04-05T13:45:00.002+08:00

"Friends do come in and go out of our life, is depend on how long they stay in our life but how much things did they put in?"

actually i dont know what am i talking about. but i suddenly feel that way. well, life getting bored. soon, i'm going back to sch. is like left one freaking week. OFFICIALLY ONE WEEK! one word to say "BORED". left one week to go and i have 4 outings this week. not bad right. rawr. i'm just tired. hais! hope money drop from sky. LMAO!!

2010-04-01T14:51:00.003+08:00

♥ HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY, CHLOE!!! ♥
u are my ♥. faster learn how to walk and i bring u go out la. hahhaa.
last sunday u had ur celebration. hope u enjoyed!! (:

HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY, everyone!

faster and go prank ppl around u. for me, anytime or so also can de la. i alway fool around de. hahha. what a good joker right? what a day man. tml public holiday and long weekend is like no kick to me lor. cause i still at home rotting! seriously ah, why when i so free and stuff, no one wan to ask me out and stuff. when i start working or packed with outing, all of u start to ask me huh. come on la. always complain i busy or didnt bother to ask me due to work, now i damn FUCKING free la yet no one ask. haha. anyway, staying at home during this few days is good la. nice weather to sleep. HAHAHA!

2010-04-01T01:40:00.005+08:00

been enjoying my rest days before going back to sch the next next week. sian. left almost like one week to go before sch start. monday i went to taka for a meeting with hr. haha. so fun and exciting la. judy is the best HR la. she doted us alot la. this is why i alway go back taka, with a wonderful HR and a bunch of CRAZINESS KA-KIS! just now went out with zc, terry, mel and carol. though didnt take much photo or what, but we did have a fun chatting session and a slacking one. i hope we can gather again man. though some ka-kis in taka didnt see them already or have a rare chance to hang with, i still rmb u all also. hahah. i think tml onward going to stay at home and rot again. maybe sleep or play with my niece and talk to my parents. hahaha. i'm sick of maple le. -.-" not really have ppl jio me lor. BORED!!!

on our way to HEAVEN LOFT at OC.
MERLION ROAR from ben & jerry.
AFTERMATCH.
the GIRLS & me. (carisser, jiamin, joyce.)
the SCANDALS!
the GUYS! qinhan & bryan. dont know why bryan emo for?
BLESSED TO HAVE THEM! (:
the BAO-BEIS!!! =D

2010-03-24T14:46:00.004+08:00

thanks for all ur concern, my friends. my dad already discharged from hospital. currently i'm staying at home to take care the 3 of them. my parents and my niece. hahhaa. everyday buy breakfast and afternoon helped out in housework. so tired la. yesterday my dad suddenly tell me at night, "if u feel like going out just go lor. if not u at home sian sian and keep sleeping." HAHA! he not used to see me at home for the whole day. well, wan go out also must see got ppl jio me anot. if not go out solo meh? I WONT LOR! hahaha. but i will try to ask him whether i can work on 30 march onward? cause my friends at taka miss me. i didnt know i suddenly become so pop there. for the time being, i shall play maple lor. train my fire wizard and can play with bri and some of my taka friends. hahaha. i felt there something coming up for me to vex again. those ppl who tried to TIAO PO LI JIAN, i give u an advice, better stop what u guys doing. if let me find out is really u guys, i shall give u TRIPLE to what u guys did to me. currently, i only can give u 2 words. 'FUCK OFF'.

2010-03-20T23:02:00.002+08:00

hais. why when things settle down, another thing happen. now my dad is admit to hospital. i got nth to think about. today might be the last day working for this holiday. i dont know whether i can just like that leave but i hope they understand. i just hope my dad will be fine la.

2010-03-20T01:30:00.002+08:00

seriously, how many more problems i need to face before i can be someone who is so relax and all. not i wanna emo but u guys make me wanna emo. badmouth about me and stuff, i just choose not to bother anymore. i dont care whether i can be trusted or so, i just FUCKING dont care! u wan to talk to me den talk. dont wan den just FUCK OFF LA! dont psycho-ing or do what a spoiler will do. dont be an ass to spoil friendship la. everyone had someone they trust alot in their heart. anyway, i so tired from work and i dont wanna to fall sick again. i been sick for a few days liao. finally it healed la. hahhaa. thanks friends in taka for ur concern huh. i'm fine and thanks for acc me to crap and so today! (: i know i'm in a abnormal mood! hhaha.

2010-03-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

hahaha. finally exam over and the feeling is like throw away all the HEAVY stone? now is time to relax and go work. i know u guys would miss me ah. relax at work place to forget all the things happen. seriously, i dont bother how u all think about me already. i just follow the decision i make. like what u guys alway say "follow ur heart". but i know i may be a bastard right now and i alway treat u all as my good friends ah. u all are always my pillar of supports! well, dont wanna talk much abt this. is time toooooo RELAX~~~~~~~

2010-03-03T17:55:00.002+08:00

i didnt treat anyone as replacement, backup or what so ever? though i'm abit bastard or so, i didnt even try to neglect u all. i tried my best and all to balance it. i never even think of disown u guys. so, dont anyhow think can? hais. is this a curse for me or so? every holis approaching, there's always something occur to me and let me choose another path to walk. i hope that wont happen la.

2010-02-21T16:36:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!!

had alot of celebration going on from my pillar of supports!!! thanks everyone for making me smiles. i appreciate!!! (: seriously, time is short. 365 days later i will be 21. but now, is like less than a month to exam. wth!!! LOL. well, enjoying study bah. i need to settle down.

2010-02-17T11:35:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CNY EVERYONE!!!

though is abit late ah. but still within the month. HUAT AH!!!! XD

may this year is a new start and a new begining! ALL THE BEST IN THE YEAR OF TIGER!! RAWR!!!!

sian lor. cny holis over and now is time to study for exam. wl, dont think can do it but will try my best!!! so tired. lack of sleep also la. wth!

2010-02-07T22:11:00.003+08:00

hais. not i wan to be emo. lost one friend is already enough.
but now, i losing another friend again.
why am i so unlucky huh. losing 2 friends in a year in my ITE life.
though i feel sad, but what to do.
this is life.
friend do come and go.
i cant take thing for granted and expect everyone to like me.
but forget it.
what is lost is lost. is hard to find back.
anyway, thanks for being a great friend to me. (:

2010-02-07T10:45:00.002+08:00

is hurt when friends give u an cold shoulder. others tried to help but yet received negative remarks from friends.
forget it, i been hearing that for a long time.
this is life. everything is cruel.
i think i am able to face it. i ought to be strong.
everyday hope that tml is a better day but the truth is.......
tml will never be a better day for me.

2010-02-01T22:27:00.002+08:00

rawr! sian can. major exam coming and mini minor test this week or during feb. all this pile of shit is pissing me off la. TSK! i think i still idle-ing la. when can i have my seriousness back sia. HAHAHA. anyway, one thing i dont like to be, A CENTER MAN. or rather sandwich. hais. i dont know which side to go to sometime. help one side, the another not happy or vice versa. hais. i dont know what to say la. and also, dont know what to do. can i just dont bother everything and let them settle their own? is like so bad as a friend. hais! WL. think i go sleep earlier and let my brain rest for a moment la. but, PHASE TEST IS bothering me. hope i dont flunk it la.

2010-01-31T13:52:00.003+08:00

hais. another week had past. why time passed so fast sia? i really dont like it. well, i think i wan to settle down also canot already. it's too late bah. just now went breakfast, i went to buy soya bean drink. i dont know why my hand keep trembling or shivering or whatever it called. and it's been quite awhile. what's more, it happen right in front of my parents and cousins which cause them worry. ): beside today, some of my friends saw it too the other days. i really scare i'm down with some illness. ): i really dont wan sia. soon, i'm going for a checkup. hais! may god bless me. i really dont wan anything! ):

2010-01-30T11:28:00.003+08:00

i think everything is back to one. currently, i got nth to think about and worry about. eh, got two thing ah. one is my family, hope they stay healthy and everything will be fine for us. and second is my study and future. other than this 2, there's nth more i can worry. what i really wan to do and wish to have already completed. after reflecting for the whole night, maybe what joleen told me yesterday is true. i been putting mask on to show everyone that i am strong, i am happy and nth wrong. but everything cant hide from my expression. i been rowdy and noisy recently and totally not myself. i been compromising ppl and lying to myself. the real me, is someone who is easily breakdown, emotional, dont need to put on mask and someone who is really do what he can and not trying to. i think i been embarrassing and making a total fool of myself in front of everyone. i shall stop it and of course, I WILL SHY ONE LA! hais. no matter what it is, i just wan to study hard for my module and move on. and also, i hope i can find back myself. to all friends, THANKS FOR BEING MY PILLAR OF SUPPORTS! (:

this is the wonderful and loving class. all of them is my pillar of supports! THANKS! (: there will be no fun without all of them. every single of them, play a different role.
i treasure them. (: xiaoci, jie jie and bri. short of carol can.
this is all the fun i used to have. i really will miss u guys. ):

2010-01-27T22:11:00.004+08:00

how i wish when i wake up from my beautiful dream, i can forget everything.
rawr, i feel so sad la. 5 classmates leaving already and 2 of them is my besties la. hais. they going poly to study. dont know what to say now. i know is good for them lor. but i still feel sad eh. cause bri is the one i talked alot to and i alway tell him my problems randomly or so and he alway be there for me. for zc, she is my sister leh. alway be there for me too and alway tried to help me as well. dont worry, syikin, mel and zoe, three of u also make my day better and make me laugh for no reason. hahaha. well, it going to be memories soon. hope we can really meet up in future eh. hais. today, i give them see my unglam side sia. suppose not to have de la. but end up canot control. sorry to make u all worry eh!

2010-01-22T14:32:00.002+08:00

bq had finally put down the heavy stone and going off to enjoy this weekend. going to jie jie & xiao ci's chalet at downtown east. this is my 1st time staying with friends for so many days. haha. normally is go on 2nd day and overnight till next day. this time different lor. i wan to put down everything and enjoy to the fullest. hais. hope i can. i dont know why is hard to forget the past. well, is totally different now. i'm a brand new bq who is totally diff from the past. i've changed. things will never be the same. though there is a disappointment, but i dont regret anything. but i really sorry to those who i have disappoint. well, not the right time to say abt this. i am who i am. dont comment or critise on me. cause u urself are not perfect. NO ONE IN THIS WORLD IS PERFECT. so stop commenting ppl and live who u are can. but i really hope can talk to u again.

2010-01-21T00:42:00.003+08:00

finally i had finish up my PM1 project. now left with case study. arghs. why we need to do project for our exam or whatever. today not feeling that well eh. FINALLY BQ IS GOING TO BE SICK. AND IT WAS THE 1st IN 2010!! well, today i did something which was damn disappointing again! hais. like hibri say, dont regret what had done and stuff la. sian sia. i really felt i changed alot. well, dont blame me for that. no matter what, i will just study hard and dont bother what's going around. i know u are happy to see me in this stat! THANKS EH!

2010-01-18T01:40:00.003+08:00

seriously is hard to forget. i dont know why i feel that way. no point hiding my thinking. i need to face the facts and face my own thinking or feeling. dont wanna to act strong and hide it. no matter what, i will try to dont bother it and having a wide smile. but of course i will think of the past. hais. dont worry people, i will be fine. it just need time. TIME IS REALLY AN IMPORTANT THINGY! but for me, i need a longer period of time. so kindly bear with it.

2010-01-16T18:39:00.004+08:00

i'm so tired after coming back from the yog training. though i need to wake up early, but it's fun la. taught those values that i can put it in when i'm out to work. MEET WHAT THE CUSTOMER NEEDS AND LISTEN TO THEM. hahah. no matter what, we need to serve with a PLEASANT SMILE!! this is what a volunteer need huh. recently been rushing through the project for PM1. everything was so last min can. hate it la. now i need to burn midnight oil to do that. and also stay back late which i dont like lor. but no choice. blessed that i finish the cover page for our sketchbook. other pages will be done when we divide the work. i got no ideas what the blog need to do can. WL~ SIAN LA! weekend BURN!!!!! ): i'm so bored la! well, for the sake of result, i better BUCK UP!

the cover page. outline by me. colour and decor by daph. and the word written by shaz.
the content page done by ME! i know is nice. dont need to say la. haha.
written by me also. OMG! alot of my work can!
soki thinking of this childhood! hahah.

2010-01-12T00:32:00.004+08:00

hais. seriously i think the problem really lie on me. i'm not thinking too much. but it's just the fact. i really dont know how to end it. why must i having problem again and again and again. I'M REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY SICK OF IT LA! maybe it true that i'm changed and also i'm irritating. what can i do? ppl always say just solve it. do u think is easy? u ask the person who is involved, the person dont wanna say a single thing and simply just ignoring u. and it also can be this way too, the person just dont wanna do anything when u trying to find out what wrong or trying to be PEACE! is it really that tough to forgive someone or just let the person know what u all thinking about or why are u all ignoring them? ONCE A VICTIM, ALWAY BE A VICTIM. or should say this way, ONCE A TARGET BOARD, ALWAY BE A TARGET BOARD! it's just need 2 hands to clap.

2010-01-09T01:43:00.007+08:00

scanning virus for my netbook. i dont know why recently it so laggy and slow. maybe it's time for it to have a eternity rest? well, 11 plus just came back from celebrating mw's 19th birthday with C5. soon i will be 20. ): old le. anyway went to harbour front centre lvl 4 dragon gate restaurant for the dinner buffet. was so full la. cause ate alot. thanks jas's bf for sending me home and i so blur that i dont know how to tell him the direction. sorry for the trouble. ): pictures will be upload when mw tag me in FB. so fun hanging out with them and it's been so long since we all meet up and gather. miss u guys! (: for ur info, girls in C5 already had their partner. only left the guys. well junda, let'S JIA YOU together to find our partner bah or else happy being single!! (:

it's been quite awhile. the trust for u is still the same as in the past. u are the most trusted one, MY FRIEND.
since we are no longer friend, i believe one day we will be friend back.
maybe i'm being too naived for thinking of that or hoping it to happen when i know that wont happen.
YES, i'm being stubborn and i'm waiting for the day.
well people, u may say me stupid, useless or whatever. i just dont wan to have a regret in my life.
yeah, i'm useless, loser, stupid, stubborn, immature, paranoid or whatever...

2010-01-07T01:04:00.002+08:00

i need to be strong to fight back. i dont wanna be a effing push over. i just wanna to prove all of u wrong. dont say me evil, mean or whatsoever. what had changed already changed. there no way of turning back. be nice will just appear as a effing push over. so why would i continue to be nice. the nice character i had in the past shall strike off from my personalities. can say me possessive or whatever shit u all wan. i dont effing care la. i only know that i need to be a rough and strong guy.

2010-01-06T02:06:00.003+08:00

i'm really lost. i dont know what to say. most friends said i'm changed. changed to worse. maybe i am protective of myself from getting hurt again. but i really dont wish to be and i didnt changed at all. i'm still the old one u all used to know. hais. but i really thanks u guys for telling me that. i dont wish things to get worse. is a new year, but i still...hais. whatever it is, i try not to say out. is better that way.

i'm addicted with the song and the drama. was show on ch U, 7pm. CRUEL TEMPTATION. damn nice la. i'm been listening to it la. SIAO LIAO.

2010-01-03T22:33:00.004+08:00

today was a fun and had the most laughters day!! this is the 1st family gathering and laughing day in 2010. had mass family gathering cause today was the 3rd anniversary of my grandma death. den we need to pray cause of the "upgrade" rank of my grandma. so everyone come my house lor. den after that, GAMBLE time. those who play mahjong went for MJ session. those who play blackjack den go for blackjack session. of course i belong to blackjack session la. cause i not so pro in mahjong! ): den after blackjack, i dont know why out of the sudden, my auntie ask me to dig out all those oldies photos of her and also ours. so everyone was looking at our own pic and started to laugh. keep laughing at ourselves lor. and all of us, look at our dad, uncle and aunties oldies day! so funny la. those tight fit pant and all. and those RETRO hair. some still similar to what those guys have now lor. omg! now i know why guys wan to keep hair long! hahah. i saw my dad teenager pic and look like me la. just that he was slimmer and tanner. HAHHA! i'm glad i look like my dad! hahha. there's alot of photo that let all of us admire at. like my aunties, all of them are so pretty and my uncle in law, all are handsome as well. really look like 2 different ppl now. hahah. what an happy event i had BEFORE MY NIGHTMARE FOR TML! ):

happy that she had a new headband! CUTE RIGHT?!
showing off she can stand lor! HAOLIAN~
trying to act cute? but she already cute dont need to act la, CHLOE~ (:
my niece pushing me away. RAWR!
dont siao siao, chloe know how to take emo pic kaes? SHE WIN ME LIAO LOR!

btw, today my auntie told me something, "BECAREFUL OF MAKING FRIENDS, DONT START TO TRUST THEM SO MUCH AND EVERYTHING MIGHT WENT WRONG! dont assume everything will be fine and is for eternity." she proved it with those photo (it was a b'day gift for her to keep and rmb them) she kept in my hse. every photo of her friends, they wrote something for my auntie and when things happen, none of them helped her. that why she is so angry when she see the pic. but i think she still have some fun times with them. (:

2009-12-31T00:27:00.007+08:00

soon, it will be 2010. a new year, a new memories to be made and also, a new journey to begin! (: anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! hope everyone will be happy as always and stay HEALTHY. (: let all the past live in the past. is a new year, why bother to be emo? HAHA! i'm not trying to be strong. what i have done already done. is depend on the other side to forgive. the other side doesnt wan, i also canot do anything. if not i go take knife and forced ah? crazy. haha. wonder how sch life will be like in 3 more days? i felt so tired to go back. well, let's forget abt 2009 and start afresh in 2010!!! (:

this is the best video and sad song. its used to be very pop in the past.

this song is sad also la. quite nice.

show u a happy video. MYSTERY~ love their dance moves. hahah.

2009-12-30T17:00:00.004+08:00

有一个家能够回去真好
家人的爱永远不减少
关切的慰问或安慰的拥抱
受伤後是最好的治疗
有一个家能够回去真好
家的温暖是不会熄灭的光芒
让我又重燃了希望

seriously, i agree with this song. no matter what happen, family will be the one who will always be there for me. regardless of how much hurt and harm i had, the love they had for me, will be the same as usual.

2009-12-29T02:54:00.004+08:00

a little thing that will cheer me up.

우리가 친구가 다시있을 것인가?
i really hope so.

2009-12-28T02:45:00.003+08:00

sometime i tend to look back, and start to find solution.
but the moment i know the fact and truth about the present.
i tell myself not to be naive and stupid.
i stopped and think for a moment, sometime is worth being naive and stupid.
also can say that being stubborn.
but that's the way how am i behave.
is hard for someone to change their personality or characteristic,
even they can, they are not truthful to themselves.
or rather, they tend to change back to how they are at the start.
i just wanna be truthful to myself instead of becoming someone who is not myself and deceiving myself.
i fall once, i stand up and face the reality.
now, i fall again, i tried to stand up and face the reality.
but is hard for me to do so.
felt miserable and helpless.
no matter how hard, i will not give up.
for whatever it is, i will tell myself.

LET THE PAST LIVE IN THE PAST!

2009-12-26T01:46:00.004+08:00

found 2 video that are so interesting. enjoy watching. haha. so tired and all. dont even think of projects. i just wan to sleep la. haha.

this is the song that the chipettes sang about their mother.

interesting mices singing to the prince. CINDERELLA IS THE MAIDEN IN THE BALL. HAHAH.

2009-12-23T00:52:00.005+08:00

is easy to make new friends .
is easy to follow them.
is easy to communicate with them.
is easy to hang out with.
BUT is hard for me to put in all the trust and forget a friend.

2009-12-21T01:41:00.003+08:00

problem coming one by one. i really dont know what to do.
i really wonder, the problem lie on me? or others?
seriously why cant it stop happening and just end it somewhere? and..why do problem come and find me?
i just wan to enjoy my effing life!
why is it so hard? ):
is it because i know too much things around? or rather...
I, MYSELF HAVE A EFFING PROBLEM.

2009-12-19T15:52:00.002+08:00

sorry people, i have let u all down. i know is harmful to me but yet i taking in it.
i not addicted but i just a sociable one. now i understand why ppl like to take in it.
i dont blame for anyone for that but only myself. i promise i wont be addicted! (:
a penny thought for me, and i was wondering. i think there no solution anymore. so i shall stop wondering. i believe there's something i can do. but i dont think it help.
anyway meeting 5N1'08 later but is rainy. I HATE BRINGING UMBRELLA OUT LA! ):

2009-12-17T14:45:00.007+08:00

woke up from my 5 hrs of BEAUTIFUL sleep. enjoy myself yesterday too much at the class bbq. alot of HAPPENINGS occur during the bbq and overnight is the best way of communicate with them. now, i'm lost and i lost my voice. ):

2009-12-13T23:47:00.006+08:00

finally i think through it and look on the bright side huh. thanks to jane and she knocked some sense. EVERYONE HAD ONLY ONE CHANCE TO LIVE, so why would i waste time emo-ing and all. i should just step out and enjoy to the fullest. some ppl out on the world wants to enjoy also cant cause they dont have the chance or rather time to do so. since i have it, i shall not waste the opportunity while i still can live on. anyway, I'M HAVING HOLIS NOW!! sadly, taka hr didnt called me so i'm JOBLESS and enjoying my life by shaking leg at home. alot of outings and events coming up for me. i shall enjoy it with my SMILES! ppl do miss my hyperness & craziness and of course, my smiles.

sun tanning with xiaoci which is tml.
class bbq plus overnight at pasir ris park on wednesday, 16/12/2009.
5N1'08 class outing at plaza singapura on saturday, 19/12/2009.
christmas party with family plus bbq at house area on next tuesday, 24/12/2009.

if i miss out any outings, pls inform me huh. cause sometime i might forget it. cause i getting older la. no choice. however on friday, 11/12/2009, i enjoyed myself even though i saw something make me emo and i keep hesitate abt it. ): anyway, thanks to PB0904J for accompany! (:

excursion to science centre in the morning.
went to UBI driving centre with mai, hada, jo & marcus in the afternoon.
last but not last, went to AMK Kbox with mich, carol, zc, soki, mel, cheryl, zoe, zs and carol/mich's friend till dusk.

anyway, thanks to my forgetfulness. i didnt bring my IC and i cant register for the driving thingy. DAMN IT. hahah. nvm la. going down one day soon so that mai can apply for the same date with jo & me. and i recruit more ppl already la. like mel & mich. dont know others interest mah? shall ask again. oh ya, anyone interested also can tell me asap ah. cause we can go in one group and do together! (: dont worry, my friends wont eat u up and they are friendly la.

2009-12-12T00:39:00.001+08:00

hais. i feel so troubled. ): i dont know what to say. i just feel damn effing sad. i really dont know what to do. damn shity!

2009-12-10T19:06:00.004+08:00

recently some of my classmates are so into "bad romance" by lady gaga and they influence me la. is nice and i like the chorus la. haha. and yesterday soki intro us a korean song, "ring ding dong" by SHINee. nice rhythm and i love their hair colour! anyway soki leaving us. ): and tml there will be farewell party for him? hais. one by one leaving again. i wonder this class will get how small lor. next leaver will be those retake O lvl. maybe me as well. haha. tml going science centre. hope is fun. -.- and tml i going to book the date for taking driving theory. dont feel like going but my dad wan me to learn. so just go lor. he say if i can drive, he buying a car for me. dont know real or fake de. -.-" buy me a remote control car ah? hahah. so maybe after go book it den find zc all bah! i dont wan to miss out the fun! (:

a few stalks of roses which belong to the girls. i just take and action abit.
the yellow rose which belong to mai. so nice right!
anyway, i realised all the watches i had, the strip had already snapped. sad la cause i canot wore it anymore. the white adidas watch was a b'day gift from my 3 lovely sisters in 2005. the green everlast watch was a b'day gift from my sec sch fren in 2006. and the blue watch was not a gift. is a watch that i brought with daph all. ): nvm la. is time to buy new one. unless ppl wan to buy for me lor. advance b'day present or christmas present. i dont mind eh! (:

the watches that had snapped after so long. ):

2009-12-10T10:18:00.003+08:00

i have come to this stat, i canot blame anyone but myself. make ppl hate me and make myself like a F**KTARD. i am paranoid person. is hard for me to stop thinking. no matter what, have to be strong and move forward. there's nth as going backward. everyone have problem. so this is my effing problem. yes i regretted. not regretting of knowing/having you as a friend but regretting of losing a friend. whatever it is, no point talking it. forget it and enjoying eating marshmallow.

2009-12-09T19:01:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DA JIE!!
another year had pass and things had changed for u. u have baby Chloe.
stay happy and be a pretty mummy! (:

2009-12-08T23:41:00.005+08:00

today went sch for the soa test. quite complicated but anyway, i can still do lor. only the link link thingy canot do finish. cause time up and everyone was rushing. unable to finish it. but lucky is just a small part. nvm. failure is the key of being success. going to study hard huh. seem like i still playing game. -.-" well, i feel like going for a swim, sun tanning, playing pool and also not to forget, having a good meal. everything need to wait till holis and of course need companions. if not, i wont be so independent doing all that alone huh. i shall end my update by showing u guys my cute niece. (:

my niece step camera shy. LOL
showing off her dimples. -.-
trying to be a ducky. HAHHA.

dec babies.

2009-12-07T21:43:00.005+08:00

today my class celebrating dec babies b'day. they are mr ismail, daph, carol, syikin and valerie. not bad huh. 4 girls and 1 men. anyway everything push forward cause next week holis already. so today just eat cakes, take photo and some lecture for lesson. photo will be upload once daph pass it to me. (: sian. tml having assignment. hope i am able to do it. soon, will be earning money and saving it for my expenses on jan. ): how i wish i can earn more. in future perhaps! (:

soki's emo pic. he say is unglam. -.-
me & mai study. look so nerd. :X