i think i shouldnt be so sad about it since u already like indirectly telling me things. is hurt but then what to do. nvm la. what i need to do is just forget it. let me tell u this, true that i have alot of friends around me and have a big connection among them. but i'm not so close to them compared to u. and u also know that i trust u so much compared to them. i also know that u scared most people have doubts with us and also misunderstand us. but we are nth what. they are the one who have so many wild imagination and the most important thing is, we have clear conscious so why do u bother what they say and all?

recently we drift apart cause of all this and so u did quite a number of things to change it or rather put it this way. u wan everyone to think/know that both of us are not so close compare to the past and wan me to know that u dont wanna be so close to me. u think i dont know? i can tell it through one glance but i just ignore it. seriously, i really dont know what to say. everything is up to u and as long as u are happy. for me, i cant do anything much but just follow what u wan. even though u didnt regard me as ur bro and good friend anymore, i just wan to tell u this. no matter what, i will still regard u as my bro cum my good friend. (:
i dont know am i thinking too much or what. i realise things have change alot compared to the past. i hope i could go back and dont know so many people. i thought i could just dont care everything but it seem that i couldnt just dont care. maybe i'm someone who think alot. and also who care for a friend so much. that's why i couldnt just dont care. i dont know what to say right now, but i just hope we can talk things out and clear all the doubts. i know sometime i might offend someone by talking or pissed them off. but i dont mean it anyway. i also know i alway have difficulties in understanding someone speech or whatever. and i alway misunderstand it. sigh. everything is my fault. seriously, i dont blame anyone but myself.
i realised things had changed for me. including myself. sigh. i dont know how it happen but everything just changed. as long as u happy den good. hais. i need some time to adjust back my mood. now i think i should think twice before saying thing and also be less hyper. i shouldnt trust someone so easily and end up getting hurt. no one to listen my burden and share thought with me. look like i have to hide everything but i dont like the feeling. that not the way i am. but no choice, i have to do that. sigh. ):

today i went to work. surprise right? yes. i'm working for weekend liao. this week i work at redemption counter for cardholders. thought it would be boring but it is a easy earn money job la. just record and see receipt. tml will be the last day of redemption. after that i dont know where will i be for next week. the full-timers in A&P is friendly and nice to talk de la. no worries for work!

seriously, i am numb and tired of it le. hais. the person who i trust the most is someone dont even bother and trust me. why am i alway suffering from this kind of thing. maybe can say i think too much. but it just hurt. in my life, why cant i have just a close friend or rather someone who bother about me. i'm really sick of this. i been hurting by people every years it goes. i think its been a few years already. sigh. i feel DAMN lousy right now. ):