hais. not i wan to be emo. lost one friend is already enough.
but now, i losing another friend again.
why am i so unlucky huh. losing 2 friends in a year in my ITE life.
though i feel sad, but what to do.
this is life.
friend do come and go.
i cant take thing for granted and expect everyone to like me.
but forget it.
what is lost is lost. is hard to find back.
anyway, thanks for being a great friend to me. (:

is hurt when friends give u an cold shoulder. others tried to help but yet received negative remarks from friends.
forget it, i been hearing that for a long time.
this is life. everything is cruel.
i think i am able to face it. i ought to be strong.
everyday hope that tml is a better day but the truth is.......
tml will never be a better day for me.

rawr! sian can. major exam coming and mini minor test this week or during feb. all this pile of shit is pissing me off la. TSK! i think i still idle-ing la. when can i have my seriousness back sia. HAHAHA. anyway, one thing i dont like to be, A CENTER MAN. or rather sandwich. hais. i dont know which side to go to sometime. help one side, the another not happy or vice versa. hais. i dont know what to say la. and also, dont know what to do. can i just dont bother everything and let them settle their own? is like so bad as a friend. hais! WL. think i go sleep earlier and let my brain rest for a moment la. but, PHASE TEST IS bothering me. hope i dont flunk it la.

hais. another week had past. why time passed so fast sia? i really dont like it. well, i think i wan to settle down also canot already. it's too late bah. just now went breakfast, i went to buy soya bean drink. i dont know why my hand keep trembling or shivering or whatever it called. and it's been quite awhile. what's more, it happen right in front of my parents and cousins which cause them worry. ): beside today, some of my friends saw it too the other days. i really scare i'm down with some illness. ): i really dont wan sia. soon, i'm going for a checkup. hais! may god bless me. i really dont wan anything! ):

i think everything is back to one. currently, i got nth to think about and worry about. eh, got two thing ah. one is my family, hope they stay healthy and everything will be fine for us. and second is my study and future. other than this 2, there's nth more i can worry. what i really wan to do and wish to have already completed. after reflecting for the whole night, maybe what joleen told me yesterday is true. i been putting mask on to show everyone that i am strong, i am happy and nth wrong. but everything cant hide from my expression. i been rowdy and noisy recently and totally not myself. i been compromising ppl and lying to myself. the real me, is someone who is easily breakdown, emotional, dont need to put on mask and someone who is really do what he can and not trying to. i think i been embarrassing and making a total fool of myself in front of everyone. i shall stop it and of course, I WILL SHY ONE LA! hais. no matter what it is, i just wan to study hard for my module and move on. and also, i hope i can find back myself. to all friends, THANKS FOR BEING MY PILLAR OF SUPPORTS! (:

this is the wonderful and loving class. all of them is my pillar of supports! THANKS! (: there will be no fun without all of them. every single of them, play a different role.
i treasure them. (: xiaoci, jie jie and bri. short of carol can.
this is all the fun i used to have. i really will miss u guys. ):

how i wish when i wake up from my beautiful dream, i can forget everything.
rawr, i feel so sad la. 5 classmates leaving already and 2 of them is my besties la. hais. they going poly to study. dont know what to say now. i know is good for them lor. but i still feel sad eh. cause bri is the one i talked alot to and i alway tell him my problems randomly or so and he alway be there for me. for zc, she is my sister leh. alway be there for me too and alway tried to help me as well. dont worry, syikin, mel and zoe, three of u also make my day better and make me laugh for no reason. hahaha. well, it going to be memories soon. hope we can really meet up in future eh. hais. today, i give them see my unglam side sia. suppose not to have de la. but end up canot control. sorry to make u all worry eh!



bq had finally put down the heavy stone and going off to enjoy this weekend. going to jie jie & xiao ci's chalet at downtown east. this is my 1st time staying with friends for so many days. haha. normally is go on 2nd day and overnight till next day. this time different lor. i wan to put down everything and enjoy to the fullest. hais. hope i can. i dont know why is hard to forget the past. well, is totally different now. i'm a brand new bq who is totally diff from the past. i've changed. things will never be the same. though there is a disappointment, but i dont regret anything. but i really sorry to those who i have disappoint. well, not the right time to say abt this. i am who i am. dont comment or critise on me. cause u urself are not perfect. NO ONE IN THIS WORLD IS PERFECT. so stop commenting ppl and live who u are can. but i really hope can talk to u again.

finally i had finish up my PM1 project. now left with case study. arghs. why we need to do project for our exam or whatever. today not feeling that well eh. FINALLY BQ IS GOING TO BE SICK. AND IT WAS THE 1st IN 2010!! well, today i did something which was damn disappointing again! hais. like hibri say, dont regret what had done and stuff la. sian sia. i really felt i changed alot. well, dont blame me for that. no matter what, i will just study hard and dont bother what's going around. i know u are happy to see me in this stat! THANKS EH!

seriously is hard to forget. i dont know why i feel that way. no point hiding my thinking. i need to face the facts and face my own thinking or feeling. dont wanna to act strong and hide it. no matter what, i will try to dont bother it and having a wide smile. but of course i will think of the past. hais. dont worry people, i will be fine. it just need time. TIME IS REALLY AN IMPORTANT THINGY! but for me, i need a longer period of time. so kindly bear with it.

i'm so tired after coming back from the yog training. though i need to wake up early, but it's fun la. taught those values that i can put it in when i'm out to work. MEET WHAT THE CUSTOMER NEEDS AND LISTEN TO THEM. hahah. no matter what, we need to serve with a PLEASANT SMILE!! this is what a volunteer need huh. recently been rushing through the project for PM1. everything was so last min can. hate it la. now i need to burn midnight oil to do that. and also stay back late which i dont like lor. but no choice. blessed that i finish the cover page for our sketchbook. other pages will be done when we divide the work. i got no ideas what the blog need to do can. WL~ SIAN LA! weekend BURN!!!!! ): i'm so bored la! well, for the sake of result, i better BUCK UP!

the cover page. outline by me. colour and decor by daph. and the word written by shaz.
the content page done by ME! i know is nice. dont need to say la. haha.
written by me also. OMG! alot of my work can!
soki thinking of this childhood! hahah.