soon, it will be 2010. a new year, a new memories to be made and also, a new journey to begin! (: anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! hope everyone will be happy as always and stay HEALTHY. (: let all the past live in the past. is a new year, why bother to be emo? HAHA! i'm not trying to be strong. what i have done already done. is depend on the other side to forgive. the other side doesnt wan, i also canot do anything. if not i go take knife and forced ah? crazy. haha. wonder how sch life will be like in 3 more days? i felt so tired to go back. well, let's forget abt 2009 and start afresh in 2010!!! (:

this is the best video and sad song. its used to be very pop in the past.

this song is sad also la. quite nice.

show u a happy video. MYSTERY~ love their dance moves. hahah.

有一个家能够回去真好
家人的爱永远不减少
关切的慰问或安慰的拥抱
受伤後是最好的治疗
有一个家能够回去真好
家的温暖是不会熄灭的光芒
让我 又重燃了希望

seriously, i agree with this song. no matter what happen, family will be the one who will always be there for me. regardless of how much hurt and harm i had, the love they had for me, will be the same as usual.

a little thing that will cheer me up.

우리가 친구가 다시있을 것인가?
i really hope so.

sometime i tend to look back, and start to find solution.
but the moment i know the fact and truth about the present.
i tell myself not to be naive and stupid.
i stopped and think for a moment, sometime is worth being naive and stupid.
also can say that being stubborn.
but that's the way how am i behave.
is hard for someone to change their personality or characteristic,
even they can, they are not truthful to themselves.
or rather, they tend to change back to how they are at the start.
i just wanna be truthful to myself instead of becoming someone who is not myself and deceiving myself.
i fall once, i stand up and face the reality.
now, i fall again, i tried to stand up and face the reality.
but is hard for me to do so.
felt miserable and helpless.
no matter how hard, i will not give up.
for whatever it is, i will tell myself.

LET THE PAST LIVE IN THE PAST!

found 2 video that are so interesting. enjoy watching. haha. so tired and all. dont even think of projects. i just wan to sleep la. haha.

this is the song that the chipettes sang about their mother.

interesting mices singing to the prince. CINDERELLA IS THE MAIDEN IN THE BALL. HAHAH.

is easy to make new friends .
is easy to follow them.
is easy to communicate with them.
is easy to hang out with.
BUT is hard for me to put in all the trust and forget a friend.

problem coming one by one. i really dont know what to do.
i really wonder, the problem lie on me? or others?
seriously why cant it stop happening and just end it somewhere? and..why do problem come and find me?
i just wan to enjoy my effing life!
why is it so hard? ):
is it because i know too much things around? or rather...
I, MYSELF HAVE A EFFING PROBLEM.

sorry people, i have let u all down. i know is harmful to me but yet i taking in it.
i not addicted but i just a sociable one. now i understand why ppl like to take in it.
i dont blame for anyone for that but only myself. i promise i wont be addicted! (:
a penny thought for me, and i was wondering. i think there no solution anymore. so i shall stop wondering. i believe there's something i can do. but i dont think it help.
anyway meeting 5N1'08 later but is rainy. I HATE BRINGING UMBRELLA OUT LA! ):

woke up from my 5 hrs of BEAUTIFUL sleep. enjoy myself yesterday too much at the class bbq. alot of HAPPENINGS occur during the bbq and overnight is the best way of communicate with them. now, i'm lost and i lost my voice. ):

finally i think through it and look on the bright side huh. thanks to jane and she knocked some sense. EVERYONE HAD ONLY ONE CHANCE TO LIVE, so why would i waste time emo-ing and all. i should just step out and enjoy to the fullest. some ppl out on the world wants to enjoy also cant cause they dont have the chance or rather time to do so. since i have it, i shall not waste the opportunity while i still can live on. anyway, I'M HAVING HOLIS NOW!! sadly, taka hr didnt called me so i'm JOBLESS and enjoying my life by shaking leg at home. alot of outings and events coming up for me. i shall enjoy it with my SMILES! ppl do miss my hyperness & craziness and of course, my smiles.

1. sun tanning with xiaoci which is tml.
   
2. class bbq plus overnight at pasir ris park on wednesday, 16/12/2009.
3. 5N1'08 class outing at plaza singapura on saturday, 19/12/2009.
4. christmas party with family plus bbq at house area on next tuesday, 24/12/2009.

if i miss out any outings, pls inform me huh. cause sometime i might forget it. cause i getting older la. no choice. however on friday, 11/12/2009, i enjoyed myself even though i saw something make me emo and i keep hesitate abt it. ): anyway, thanks to PB0904J for accompany! (:

• excursion to science centre in the morning.
• went to UBI driving centre with mai, hada, jo & marcus in the afternoon.
  
• last but not last, went to AMK Kbox with mich, carol, zc, soki, mel, cheryl, zoe, zs and carol/mich's friend till dusk.
  
  
  
  
  
  

anyway, thanks to my forgetfulness. i didnt bring my IC and i cant register for the driving thingy. DAMN IT. hahah. nvm la. going down one day soon so that mai can apply for the same date with jo & me. and i recruit more ppl already la. like mel & mich. dont know others interest mah? shall ask again. oh ya, anyone interested also can tell me asap ah. cause we can go in one group and do together! (: dont worry, my friends wont eat u up and they are friendly la.

hais. i feel so troubled. ): i dont know what to say. i just feel damn effing sad. i really dont know what to do. damn shity!

recently some of my classmates are so into "bad romance" by lady gaga and they influence me la. is nice and i like the chorus la. haha. and yesterday soki intro us a korean song, "ring ding dong" by SHINee. nice rhythm and i love their hair colour! anyway soki leaving us. ): and tml there will be farewell party for him? hais. one by one leaving again. i wonder this class will get how small lor. next leaver will be those retake O lvl. maybe me as well. haha. tml going science centre. hope is fun. -.- and tml i going to book the date for taking driving theory. dont feel like going but my dad wan me to learn. so just go lor. he say if i can drive, he buying a car for me. dont know real or fake de. -.-" buy me a remote control car ah? hahah. so maybe after go book it den find zc all bah! i dont wan to miss out the fun! (:





a few stalks of roses which belong to the girls. i just take and action abit.
the yellow rose which belong to mai. so nice right!
anyway, i realised all the watches i had, the strip had already snapped. sad la cause i canot wore it anymore. the white adidas watch was a b'day gift from my 3 lovely sisters in 2005. the green everlast watch was a b'day gift from my sec sch fren in 2006. and the blue watch was not a gift. is a watch that i brought with daph all. ): nvm la. is time to buy new one. unless ppl wan to buy for me lor. advance b'day present or christmas present. i dont mind eh! (:

the watches that had snapped after so long. ):

i have come to this stat, i canot blame anyone but myself. make ppl hate me and make myself like a F**KTARD. i am paranoid person. is hard for me to stop thinking. no matter what, have to be strong and move forward. there's nth as going backward. everyone have problem. so this is my effing problem. yes i regretted. not regretting of knowing/having you as a friend but regretting of losing a friend. whatever it is, no point talking it. forget it and enjoying eating marshmallow.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DA JIE!!
another year had pass and things had changed for u. u have baby Chloe.
stay happy and be a pretty mummy! (:

today went sch for the soa test. quite complicated but anyway, i can still do lor. only the link link thingy canot do finish. cause time up and everyone was rushing. unable to finish it. but lucky is just a small part. nvm. failure is the key of being success. going to study hard huh. seem like i still playing game. -.-" well, i feel like going for a swim, sun tanning, playing pool and also not to forget, having a good meal. everything need to wait till holis and of course need companions. if not, i wont be so independent doing all that alone huh. i shall end my update by showing u guys my cute niece. (:

my niece step camera shy. LOL
showing off her dimples. -.-
trying to be a ducky. HAHHA.

dec babies.

today my class celebrating dec babies b'day. they are mr ismail, daph, carol, syikin and valerie. not bad huh. 4 girls and 1 men. anyway everything push forward cause next week holis already. so today just eat cakes, take photo and some lecture for lesson. photo will be upload once daph pass it to me. (: sian. tml having assignment. hope i am able to do it. soon, will be earning money and saving it for my expenses on jan. ): how i wish i can earn more. in future perhaps! (:

soki's emo pic. he say is unglam. -.-
me & mai study. look so nerd. :X